Loveless

Love is a mesterisous thing, what is love? some say it's an attraction to someone, others say it is this amazing feeling when your with someone you care for, you know you want to be with them for the rest of your life, some people think you need to let a person grow on you before you are able to love that person, yet still others believe in love at first sight.
I just broke up with my girlfriend of four months, she was the closest thing to a serisous relationship i've ever had, I know it sounds a little rediculous but i've only had two girlfriends before. When your in Highschool it seems like you always are obligated to have a girlfriend or boyfriend, when we realy don't have to have one at all, if you have one great if not, no one is going to judge you, but still you always are looking, just looking for someone special, that one person that you know will make your whole life change forever.
Valentines Day is approching fast and i'm feeling, well i don't know what i'm feeling. On one hand i want to be all corny/romantic and ask this girl that i have a crush on to be my valentine. But then again i just finished my last relationship less than two weeks ago, so i don't know what to do. I don't know if i really like this person or not and if i don't then i don't want to go hurting anybody if a relationship doesn't workout.
All i know is that i'm tired of trying to find love, i'm not going to put myself into a position where i'm brainwashing myself into thinking that i like someone. For now i'm just going to let things take their own course and if i fall in love that's great if i don't oh-well it's not like it's the end of the world.